Relation-ships.

Yup. 'Relation Ships'. It's a world-wide chain. You take a cruise with another human. At first you're excited because you saw the add one day at the doctor's office & you worked up the courage to call & find out more. Turns out you're available to go so you buy some new clothes to get ready for the day you take off. You learn how to pack things tightly (take that how you want), you read some tip books & blogs, you make sure you're not late. (Again, take that how you want to) So, the day comes: you show up & you hop on the ship. You're nervous & unsure how to stand & worried you're not gonna like it or have fun. So far so good. Still in major analysis zone though. Welp after a while, you get to your room & clean up, but then you're not sure after that. Do you venture off to the areas you haven't been to, yet? Try out the midnight yogurt bar? Again you work up some more courage & you decide to take it to the next level. Everything keeps going okay, so you stick with the routine you've gotten used to. Then after a little while you decide it's time for some introductions. You merge the worlds, shake everybody's hands.  Everyone liked everyone! Yay. You can continue. As the time goes by, you get farther out from shore. Just deeper & deeper into the big journey on the ocean & you feel so confused when you think about what life was like before. And then you think I couldn't possibly live life without this cruise ship. It's just how you want it. It's like you have these buffets that offer so many different things but easily & at your finger tips. Who knew trying new things wouldn't be difficult!  You can try something new whenever you wanted. You know it so well now, you never have to worry how it's gonna take certain things. It's almost like you know how to manipulate it. Just kidding. But sort of, ya know? Eh..okay. This is taking a while. Who knew I was going to get this into this cruise analogy? So anyway, it's pretty close to the same thing. 

The last connection I'll describe is that there are so many different types. You've seen all the commercials for the different styles. I've had a few different ones that's for sure. And they all have their benefits afterwards. What you took away was like a new gadget to add to your tool belt. Definitely had the ones that redefined me as a human. It's a fact that the shell of me is similar, just a lil more tired at times & with red hair, but the junk inside has grown & evolved in the best ways possible to have become this person that likes herself much more, feels comfortable to have an opinion & likes to wear lipstick everyday. It is crazy to try & think like my 5 year ago brain did. Can't do it. Don't worry about it. I don't want to ever go through the crap I did before again. That was some low stuff. BUT. BUTT  if I have to have to have to in order to get to where I am now.. WHERE'S THE SIGNUP SHEET? I'm thankful for the me that's bumming around town these days. It feels as if I have climbed a really tall something, like the Crag. Remember that? Gosh I wanted to be on that show so badly when I was a kid. GUTS RIP. Where are you now, Mo? Did I lose some people? Mmk. Relating ships to one another. Yes. I've had my share. It's also bizarre to think about how resilient we are. I mean, damn. Our skin is surely made of rubber with like the energizer bunny laced inside. I was especially surprised to believe that I was able to come back from the times when the Avalanche just kept falling. It's not that easy, world. 

Then there's all that time where I was single. Lots of Gilmore Girls & the new Sherlock Holmes movies. Lots of solo kitchen dancing where I'd end up lying on my kitchen floor watching fan spin & counting the lady bugs on my walls. Lots of cereal. So much cereal. My classic moves usually included the following: come home after work, cook something, eat it while watching GG, continue to lie there, eventually peel off certain pieces of clothing, grab the cereal box, lie back down, start to doze off with all the lights & too many layers of clothes on - usually my shoes, GG still, and I'd wake up with various dishes in my lap and/or cereal in my hair at 3 AM, then I'd finally get ready for bed. My best nights, notice how I wrote 'best' - we're not gonna discuss the worst ones, most of the times ended with me waking up at 4 to find my mug of tea spilled in my lap & on my sheets, I'd proceed to cover it with a towel & fall back to sleep. 

I wish I could sign up for one of those monthly clubs that sends you stuff except this one would be for new kinds of cereal. HEAVEN. 

More food in hair related stories to come. Lata flava.